It all seems grey! 

It all seems grey All shades of grey 

Insecurities of all that surrounds me 

Questioning career choices 

Debating about life choices 

All choices made by me 

Were they made out of fear? 

Or was it determination? 

Or just a bit of stubborn? 

Second guessing yourself in all you do 

It all seems grey 

All shades of grey 

The constant feeling of being a nomad 

Of never truly belonging anywhere 

The little voice inside my head constantly screaming 

It all seems grey 

All shades of grey 

No reassurance of being suffice 

No clear direction 

An up hill climb to just survive 

To just have the bare essentials 

It all seems grey 

All shades of grey 

When you know this is not you 

Where all the rain drops don’t seem like gumdrops 

When the obstacles just seem too big 

Back to me! 

U find urself pleasing people When u have always prided urself 

In marching to the beat of ur own drums 

Somehow along the way 

It was easier to conform then to be u 

But as u look back was it easier? 

Or simply a cop out? 

Constantly question ur decisions…

As if others opinions really have any weight 

Thru all the ups and downs 

U made it here with rare and fews 

That supported decisions made 

But in no form or fashion infringed in ur thought 

It’s that time to completely erase this version of u

Place it up top on a shelf where no one can find

And be true to urself 

The u that u have always been 

The u that conforms to those bitty bopping ideas

The u that questions the world while breaking way 

Creating new paths where no one imagined them 

Fighting with actions not words and fists 

Sitting back and laughing for that moment 

When suddenly ur weird or crazy is suddenly acceptable 
I am tired of fighting for all the wrong reasons 

For reasons oblivious to myself 

I will fight for me and mine 

I will fight the dreams that have yet to one true 

I will fight for all those things that have been yanked from being 

I will fight for my heart 

Love!!!!

Do u know when love is real? When ur willing to go thru all the heartaches and pain right along the side of the person u claim u love 

Love is knowing that there are good days and bad days but no matter what each other’s arms is the safe haven it’s the one place in the world that makes time pass so fast it’s the one place that drowns out all the noise 

Love are the tears streaming down your face when reason has no answers 

It’s fighting the confusion and deceit created by the life we live 

It’s holding on to that pounding in your chest at the mere sight of their face…

It’s your heart beat responding to theirs 

Knowing that’s exactly where it belongs 

When everything else is wrong but they are so right 

When a few seconds can calm the inner most demon inside of u 

When their happiness means more than any possible thing on earth!! 

Oh sweet poison

Let the warm scotch warm my veins Pause My broken heart 

Fill the void of my thoughts 

Invigorate my inner voice 

Numb all emotions and feelings 

Oh sweet poison 

Take me away from this place 

Let me dream of days gone by 

Of days I wish I had

Oh sweet poison 

Erase the pain of my memories 

Breathe life into my shattered soul 

Let my body sway to the rhythm circulating within 

Let my heart beat to the pulses of your brown skin 

Dear old scotch be my friend tonight 

When voices go unheard and people unseen 

Here’s to…

Here’s to the dreamer in you That doesn’t know how to give up 

That thru the tears and frustrations 

Continues to fight 
Here’s to the fighter in you 

Whose tenacity propels you forward 

To places that you never even dreamed of 

Whose strength compares to no other 

Because to what some is broken to others it’s shedding dead skin 
Here’s to the believer in you 

Whose faith in self and others allows you to keep moving forward when all you see is an abyss 

Seeking for something that no one else sees 
Here’s to the lover in you 

Who continues to believe in people 

Who continues to fight for all those values that today seem unicorn like 

Who dream and achieve exactly what they are seeking 
Here’s to you 

Here’s to me 

For trying everyday to be 

Dreamers 

Believers 

Fighters 

Lovers 
Here’s for getting up every time we get knocked down 

For defying the labels and stigmas attached to every “failure” 

For pushing past the insignificant shadows and nay Sayers 

For liberating ourselves of all the dead weight 

Here’s for being human 

And erring every step of the way 

And allowing the tears to wash away the pain to be 

Dreamers 

Fighters 

Believers

Lovers 
Here’s to us! 

Faith and Hope

I lost my faith a long time ago And everyday I find hints of it 

In the faces of those I love 

In vague faces of humanity 

In the essence of the earth 

In the mere coincidences of life 
It’s easy to loose hope in humanity 

When darkness tries with all its might to succumb you 

I find light in words 

I find light in simple gestures 

I find light in warm embraces 
Fragile creatures are hope and faith 

When us mere humans place them on names and places 

Names of individuals that have no hold on us 

Places that hold no stake for us 
In the name of hope and faith I have done a number of things 

Some that have made me who I am 

And some that I regret with all of my being 
I have learned that I am a child of the wind and the ocean 

And I must have faith in the constant change they continuously provide me 

But find hope that they guide me in the way I am suppose to 

And at the strongest and deepest of changes, I have no one to hold my hand but me

Memories 

A trail of memories I live behind 

Packed with laughter and tears 

I feel like a kid with no roots 

Constantly moving from here to there 

Constantly loosing this or that 

Constantly feeling like I am not enough 

I use to love change and endless possibilities but now I am full of fear afraid that this moment is it that this very moment will not exist again 

I don’t know how to feel

My life in boxes full of memories