Love!!!!

Do u know when love is real? When ur willing to go thru all the heartaches and pain right along the side of the person u claim u love 

Love is knowing that there are good days and bad days but no matter what each other’s arms is the safe haven it’s the one place in the world that makes time pass so fast it’s the one place that drowns out all the noise 

Love are the tears streaming down your face when reason has no answers 

It’s fighting the confusion and deceit created by the life we live 

It’s holding on to that pounding in your chest at the mere sight of their face…

It’s your heart beat responding to theirs 

Knowing that’s exactly where it belongs 

When everything else is wrong but they are so right 

When a few seconds can calm the inner most demon inside of u 

When their happiness means more than any possible thing on earth!! 

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Random thoughts of love, loyalty and friends

We live in a web of lies that we continue to tell ourselves Where simple words have no meaning 

Love, loyalty and friends don’t mean the same thing they use to mean 

The childhood veil has lifted 

Intoxicated from the reality 

I believed in fairytales but forgot how grotesque they really are not the Disney version that we all have become so accustomed to 

It all leaves a trail of bloodshed tears that others don’t seem to notice 

It hardens the heart 

And you dig to feel something other than pain and indifference where there once was as care and sensitivity 

The influx of memories that play and replay and make it so hard for that cozy feeling to ever come back 

Wondering what you ever believed in

Late Night Thoughts 

Don’t know why I keep thinking so much 

Worrying about things I can’t control 

Scared to death of the emotions deep inside 

Because I’m so used to being hurt and left behind 

Great at hiding the dark parts of my soul with exaggerated laughters and dramatic angers 

Assuring no one sees the tears full of insecurities 

Nods of emotions embedded so long ago that letting go is such a puzzle 

When feeling happy is weighed down with the nagging feeling of your past 

A past that sneaks it’s ugly claws in the moment you swear you have it all figured out 

Smooth edges hardened thru the years of pushing back of fighting back 

Never needing anything but the pages of my books taking me away from the reality in which I lived 

Busted my ass to move forward and up away from it all 

But buried in the moments of memories rooted in my soul are the never ending disappointments by those that claimed they loved me by a society that continuously wanted to weigh me down by a culture that trapped me and boxed me 

I think so much of things that should be buried 

But they rise from the dead when my heart hurts and my silent cries fill my bed reminding me that I should be used to them by now

Late night post- Material things 

This idea to continuously worry about material things …where did it come from? 

Because it leaves a void in our souls when that’s all we concern ourselves about. 

This constant venture for things that fade things that loose value 

But character and strength seem to be non existent.

Chasing paper that’s what they call it 

Chasing approval based on dollar signs 

Distracted by the constant crusade for more 

Instead of concentrating on more time for peace for love for growth for sanity 

When all the material things are gone , 

What will you have left? 

Are you made of fire and ice? 

Where the ruins of the world cannot destroy you? 

Where humbling yourself is not a disaster? 

Where new beginnings come with a breath of fresh air? 

A time or two 

I have given my heart a time or two 

I believed in fairytales and bubble gum dreams

That love changes everything 

That love makes things better 

All the love songs and poems 

All the letters and sayings 

Believed with every fiber of my being 

That this thing called love 

Was the most amazing feeling 

And in time I learned the harsh reality 

Loving someone comes with the specific instructions of giving your all and knowing that the person can destroy you at any point in time 

Loving someone is knowing that they don’t have to love you back and allowing them to free 

Loving someone is wishing them the best even when they deserve the worst 

Loving someone means always having that persons interest in mind and putting their needs and wants in high priority 

So this thing called love that everyone writes songs and stories about 

This feeling that exposes every insecurity every desire 

Consumes your very soul 

And when you finally decide to use your brain and shut off any emotions and feelings 

You wake up one morning and find that  Sir Love lives in your heart breathes thru your lungs 

Because as much as you don’t want to feel the roller coaster ride of emotions or feel exposed to the one person that can hurt you 

Here you stand with your heart racing and blood thumping at the mere sound of his voice 

And you feel like a stupid teenage girl 

And there comes the hurt and pain 

Cleansed by tears and laughter 

But this time you can’t seem to let go 

You can’t walk away 

Because this time something is different 

And it’s not something that can really be explained with words 

A scary sensation of belonging yet knowing you deserve so much more than the pain 

And the one that is suppose to be right there is the same one that ripped bandages and scars 

I have given my heart a time or two 

But never felt like I belonged 

Take a moment 

When your soul hurts and your heart breaks 

When the pain seems unbearable 

When the tears just overflow 


Take a moment 


For the memories to roll

For the laughters to replay 

For the heart to remember 


Stop and breathe

Silence and reflection 

Prayers and whispers 


When it becomes crippling

Hold on to the moments were it didn’t hurt 

Embrace the strength buried deep inside 


Take a moment 


Affirmations to fuel the strength 

Give Time to fill the void 

And Love to heal the soul