I have given my heart a time or two
I believed in fairytales and bubble gum dreams
That love changes everything
That love makes things better
All the love songs and poems
All the letters and sayings
Believed with every fiber of my being
That this thing called love
Was the most amazing feeling
And in time I learned the harsh reality
Loving someone comes with the specific instructions of giving your all and knowing that the person can destroy you at any point in time
Loving someone is knowing that they don’t have to love you back and allowing them to free
Loving someone is wishing them the best even when they deserve the worst
Loving someone means always having that persons interest in mind and putting their needs and wants in high priority
So this thing called love that everyone writes songs and stories about
This feeling that exposes every insecurity every desire
Consumes your very soul
And when you finally decide to use your brain and shut off any emotions and feelings
You wake up one morning and find that Sir Love lives in your heart breathes thru your lungs
Because as much as you don’t want to feel the roller coaster ride of emotions or feel exposed to the one person that can hurt you
Here you stand with your heart racing and blood thumping at the mere sound of his voice
And you feel like a stupid teenage girl
And there comes the hurt and pain
Cleansed by tears and laughter
But this time you can’t seem to let go
You can’t walk away
Because this time something is different
And it’s not something that can really be explained with words
A scary sensation of belonging yet knowing you deserve so much more than the pain
And the one that is suppose to be right there is the same one that ripped bandages and scars
I have given my heart a time or two
But never felt like I belonged