Symphonies 

Long ago in a land faraway Lived a girl a small naive sheltered girl 

That found adventure and passion 

In sounds and melodies from artists hearts 

Smiles and tears from lyrics sometimes unknown to her 

She hmmmm to songs of love and hate 

She discovered escape routes from her daily 

When it hurt the must she would sing at the top of her lungs to songs that spoke to her soul 

While the world around her crumbled 

She created fantasy stages where she would wow the world with strings, percussions, notes 

With every sunrise and sunset, she embraced rhythm and blues with a little hard bass 

When reality became too harsh for her years 

The beating of the drums took her away on trips far far away 

And every time she felt that she lost a little more of her innocence, she belted doooo reeeeee meeee faaaaa sooooooo until she drowned out all the other sounds 

She encrusted her souls with melodies and rhythms from all around the world to create her own symphonies! 

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It all seems grey! 

It all seems grey All shades of grey 

Insecurities of all that surrounds me 

Questioning career choices 

Debating about life choices 

All choices made by me 

Were they made out of fear? 

Or was it determination? 

Or just a bit of stubborn? 

Second guessing yourself in all you do 

It all seems grey 

All shades of grey 

The constant feeling of being a nomad 

Of never truly belonging anywhere 

The little voice inside my head constantly screaming 

It all seems grey 

All shades of grey 

No reassurance of being suffice 

No clear direction 

An up hill climb to just survive 

To just have the bare essentials 

It all seems grey 

All shades of grey 

When you know this is not you 

Where all the rain drops don’t seem like gumdrops 

When the obstacles just seem too big 

Back to me! 

U find urself pleasing people When u have always prided urself 

In marching to the beat of ur own drums 

Somehow along the way 

It was easier to conform then to be u 

But as u look back was it easier? 

Or simply a cop out? 

Constantly question ur decisions…

As if others opinions really have any weight 

Thru all the ups and downs 

U made it here with rare and fews 

That supported decisions made 

But in no form or fashion infringed in ur thought 

It’s that time to completely erase this version of u

Place it up top on a shelf where no one can find

And be true to urself 

The u that u have always been 

The u that conforms to those bitty bopping ideas

The u that questions the world while breaking way 

Creating new paths where no one imagined them 

Fighting with actions not words and fists 

Sitting back and laughing for that moment 

When suddenly ur weird or crazy is suddenly acceptable 
I am tired of fighting for all the wrong reasons 

For reasons oblivious to myself 

I will fight for me and mine 

I will fight the dreams that have yet to one true 

I will fight for all those things that have been yanked from being 

I will fight for my heart 

Empty Spaces 

In the symphonies of words Said by the people that surround me 

I find empty spaces And ticking time bombs 

Moments filled with Pandora boxes 

Enticing beats to stray your focus 

Words so intoxicating that they seem reality 

But it’s all fools gold 

Scheming to make you take the wrong path 

The path that your soul knows doesn’t belong 

Oooooo these promises of nothing but chaos 

Keeping me away from the goals set on stoke with my name on it 

Take a moment 

When your soul hurts and your heart breaks 

When the pain seems unbearable 

When the tears just overflow 


Take a moment 


For the memories to roll

For the laughters to replay 

For the heart to remember 


Stop and breathe

Silence and reflection 

Prayers and whispers 


When it becomes crippling

Hold on to the moments were it didn’t hurt 

Embrace the strength buried deep inside 


Take a moment 


Affirmations to fuel the strength 

Give Time to fill the void 

And Love to heal the soul 

These Four Walls

Me and these four walls
We have built a bond like no other
I have cried and laughed
I have screamed and danced
In these four walls
I prayed for clarity
I have begged for forgiveness
In these four walls
I have lost my faith
I have gained my confidence
In these four walls
I know it’s me against the world
I am clear where my bearings lie
In these four walls
I can mourn the loss of a friend
I can celebrate the desire of a lover
In these four walls
No one is quick to judge
No one is quick to assume
In these four walls
I am a friend
I am a foe
In these four walls
Dreams are spoken
Nightmares are released in tears
In these four walls
I am reminded that I am a soldier
Battling against my own demons
And that of others
In these four walls
I am taught that my shield is invisible and invincible
I am lost with hope of tomorrow
I am haunted with yesterdays
In these four walls
I can be
Just be …
In these four walls
I can listen to silence while it speaks to me